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 ”God handed me a trash bag bloated with feathers. Turn this / into a bird, he said. He threw me a bowl of nails. And make with this, / a new father. “ -  - Eugenia Leigh, We Called It The Year Of Birthing 
Released stills from Kundiman poet, Eugenia Leighs’ book trailer for “Blood, Sparrows and Sparrows” that I directed and shot last week on the dunes of Montauk Beach.

The book is coming out via Four Way Books in October 2014. Trailer to be released in September 2014. 



Over the last few months, our first short animation “RED” has been part of the official selection of the 2014NY Asian American Int’l Film FestivalAnimation Block Party, and Blue Plum Animation Festival. It has won awards for Best Editting and Best Screenplay at Womens Independent Film Festival, and Best Animation at Asians On Film Festival's Spring Quarter and the Young Filmmakers Contest at Environmental Film Festival at Yale.

This cosmic animation is based on Fatimah Asghars poem about a woman’s struggle and self-affirmations as she explain to a lover what it feels like to be touched while on her menstrual cycle. It was co-directed by iambeyon and jessxchen , featuring music and sound design by M&O and anderslink .

Nobody really anticipated it coming this far and reaching the exposure it has, so this has been really amazing! Thank you for everyone who has worked on it, and the audiences who were there to witness the new languages created when spoken word poetry, mythology and hand drawn animation intersect. It is so important that the voices of women are being heard. You can buy tickets to the NYC premiere in the 2014 AIFF shorts program here: Otherwise, look forward to an internet release through buttonpoetry before the end of this summer.


25 years ago


NYTimes Coverage 25 Years Ago

NYTimes: “Tiananmen, Forgotten”

NYTimes: “Tales of Army Discord Show Tiananmen Square in New Light”

SCMP multimedia: “Voices from Tiananmen”

"Tiananmen Square: Unseen Photos Taken by Protestor"


[Twenty-three] [Twenty-two]

A collection of articles and photos from poet, Jennifer S. Cheng’s blog that re-imagine and remember the Tiananmen Square protests of 1989, twenty-five years ago. 


We just screen printed a whole new run of back patches, and little patches available in the LoveHoldLetGo etsy store. Made from recycled fabric and screenprinted in our living room.

The top two back patches, Funeral for the Honey Bee, and Gardening as an Act of Resistance were done by Jess X Chen.

The bottom small patches of the two people walking beneath the moon, was drawn by Beyon. 

Jess X Chen 2014 / Water Color Sketchbook /
Three swans fly over a mountain range.

Tattooed on to me by Noel’le Longhaul AKA laughingloone 


By Jess X chen and Beyon 2014

Scratchboard / Album poster that we made for a contest for one of our favorite bands: The Antlers, and their new album Familiars. We were told to take inspiration from the sculpture on their album, so we made a this image out of it. This is what Beyon wrote about the design.

the idea behind the image draws from the definition of a familiar as a spirit that lives its life in the embrace of the host who it was born with, this could manifest as anything from a pet, to a spouse, to a sibiling, to a ghost, to an imaginary friend, whoever it is in that persons life who’s absence would mean the collapse of the life they share. they exist, to large and within a single fragile house which would crumble if ever they left the arms of their familiar. ”

Jess X Chen / Sketchbook 2014

"In the depths of winter, I found within me an invincible summer." - Albert Camus /

A deer watches the hunters burn. For once, the heart of the forest fire reverses.

New personal piece in my summer 2014 watercolor sketchbook.  


As we let go of the death of one performance cycle, we can bear witness to the rise of another. Here are our favorite stills of SILENCE & THE EARTH  back when it was a shadow puppet play that we took on tour from Halifax to New York, to Chicago, to New Orleans, to Seattle and across Canada back to Halifax in Summer/Fall of 2013. Through a continental tour of over sixty performances in people’s living rooms, backyards, and in public observatories and theaters, we have discovered the most generous support for this story of eco-decolonization, but also realized that the piece is far from done. Its’ final form will be in independent cinema that will take 3-4 years to complete.

A year later, we wanted to take a moment to thank you to every audience member, every friend who believed in us, every stranger who came from the cracks of all corners of America to witness our words and who believed in Silence’s story. Thank you to every mentor and human who ever believed in the power of poetry and theater to be a vessel in which our collapsing planet may speak through. 

We wouldn’t still be working on this story if it weren’t for you. 

And as always we are humbled by the presence of this resilient Earth. 
Onwards we go, in resilience, grace, and Earth.

You can read more about the updated and evolving synopsis here: 

You can like LoveHoldLetGo on facebook here.


LoveHoldLetGo is going to an be an exhibitor as a part of the first ever Rhode Island Independent Publishing Expo on August 2-3 in the Providence Public Library. Our friend Ian Cozzens AKA secretdoorprojects is also a part! We will be selling new zines, and even possibly a comic, prints, back patches, posters!

The Rhode Island Independent Publishing Expo (RIPExpo) is a summer weekend devoted to small-press and self-published comics, zines and books. Artists and writers from all over North America will join local creators to share work and generate discussion. RIPExpo is committed to giving voice to those underrepresented in mainstream media. Check out this whole list of other awesome exhibitors!

Today is June 4th, the 25th anniversary of the Tiananmen Square Massacre. The gravity of the loss is deeper than my limited understanding of my own country’s violent history, yet it is part of the reason why I am living in America today. Three years ago, one of the first spoken word poems I’ve written is called, "Red" — a poem dedicated to the million families who were affected by and lost their lives in the protests and shootings. I know language, voice and my lifetime is a broken medium that fails to completely give grace and honor to the loss, and the resilience of the protesting students and professors lost. Yet it is all I have. You can listen to an audio recording of my poem above. It originally appeared in Project ASIAM: an Asian American Social Justice Blog. 

You can also go here to see an article here on a landmark exhibition in NYC of artworks commemorating the protests’ 25th anniversary. 

Anonymous asked:

I think that you went to the high school where I'm currently a student. some of your artwork is still up! I am kind of shy. someday I would like to be as cool as you.

aw, that is so sweet of you. i was kind of shy too in high school. don’t worry, everything goes uphill after highschool is over. i would encourage you to take advantage of the many art classes there though. those classes were the only safe spaces / refuges i had there. i basically lived in the art room.  wishing you all the best with your years, and thanks for reaching out. 

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With Jess X Chen, old friend.

photos of my tattoo done by Noel’le Longhaul. I even wrote a line of poetry about it.

"like a gravedigger extracts a hollow the Earth has known all it’s existence, you unearth from my skin, a secret my body has known all my life." 


i think eyelashes are the most beautiful things. (excerpt from animated music video for Primary Stress)

animated gif from by iambeyon, from one of the many new animations and films that my collective, loveholdletgo is working on

I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. —RIP Maya Angelou. I will never forget how you made me feel (via kawrage)

Jess X Chen 2014 | Some watercolor mail art that I’ve done recently.

Yes, of course all complicated letters I send out come in the shape of a creepy pusheen……haunting you like the beyonce song. The whiskers are the four needles I broke in the process of sewing it…. 

Quote from the second image:

“from the sun I learned this; when she goes down, overrich; she pours gold into the sea of inexhaustible riches, so that even the poorest fisherman still rows with golden oars. For this I once saw and did not tire of my tears as I watched it."

- Fredrich Nietzsche